IT'S DAY LIGHT SAVINGS TIME YA'LL!   Maybe its the extra hour of sleep but to me, today seemed oddly quiet. 

Spent the day lounging (what else is new right?) Church in the evening with Mother and Baby Bill. Then off to do some grocery and to eat out. 

 

For some odd reason, I developed an allergy to most seafood, though I don't mind. Call me crazy but I'm not a big fan of lobster, shrimp, crabs etc. But I really just can't resist this Vietnamese Summer Roll! So delish!

I noticed that nowadays, I don't get to eat rice anymore and as often if I don't eat out. Ironic, really.

 

I will never tire of going grocery shopping with le mother! Though she on the other hand, is tired of bringing me out! Ever since we were young though, she has always been generous when it comes to food. We would spend hundred and thousands of PHP on food that would only last  for a week. We were never--if rarely-- on a "budget" and that still holds true even to this day.

HEDGEHOGS! Seasonal chocolates are THE BEST! Can't wait for my favourite --Guylian Belgian Sea Shells--to go on the shelves! 

I mean, tuexedo cake for no special reason?! It almost feels like it's my birthday....

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

Been eating wayy too many sweets.

 

Approve!

 

What a very physically and psychologically overwhelming day. I decided to pick up another extra shift in the clinic today even though it's a Saturday. My first patient happened to be an RMT for a little over 10 years; he was requesting for a very specific work. I was quite comfortable, if only a tad intimidated. The problem is, I think he was either not trained the way we are, or its just been a while and he'd forgotten how it is like to know virtually next to nothing. Fine, I know things but with so many to learn I just shove most of them somewhere else to make space for new information. 

I think it was that I wasn't comfortable enough with my own skills, he was polite and very instructional the whole time; he even got off the table and thought me certain techniques. *sighs* 

Due to the nature of the treatment, I basically had a very sore back  and being doused in my own sweat. I had to stay behind for a few hours to recuperate before I found the energy to head to work to return the lab coat I'd borrowed for halloween. Of all the days, it's luckily that I chose today to drop by. FREE FOOD from work, just in time too because I was starved! 

 

I'd originally planned on donating blood after practicum today before my birthday in two weeks, in which I had planned on getting some sort of body modification rendering me unable to donate for the next six months or so. The problem is, I was informed that since I had just donated, I have to wait until the 19th, my birthday is on the 18th! Oh well! 

So home it was then. Rested, then got ready for KS post birthday dinner since I hadn't wanted to join her in the club.

 

Birthday girl

 

There weren't very many of us. The intimate group included KS, WT, CB, JB, LG, and DP

Can you guess one of her favoured colours?

 

Lemon Meringue Mojito 

Some sort of East Indian dish. Note-to-self: Never order an East Indian dish from a non East Indian restaurant. 

KS's complimentary ice cream and cake. We raped it

It was actually quite brief. After we ate, KS and WT headed for the club, the rest back to SFU to continue their study sesh and I walked back home. I thought of joining them but I'm just too lazy now. 

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

Just got back from watching Tower Heist 2011 with le mother. I like it, it kept me entertained. Aside from that and accompanying mother with her evening errands, I basically just lazed around the whole Friday due to the fact that I did not have any class/other commitments. 

 

Yesterday was a bit depressing though. I headed home late in the evening, and on my way, I saw a couple of people I know/acquainted with. One of which being a former classmate from high school. To keep up conversation and avoid awkward bus ride, I chatted him up about inane topics such as how was his life post high school, does he keep in touch with former class/school mates, has he visited back etc. That in itself wasn't too bad, it's more of the fact that I noticed that time is passing by quickly. So quickly in fact that I am to turn a full two decade in a mere 13 days. It bothered me so much that I couldn't help but feel very emotional and teary eyed as I walked Aso for the evening. 

I don't like.

For some reason, not being a teen any longer saddens me, I feel like I haven't accomplished anything in the nearly twenty years that I have lived. I used to joke to my friends that I would have a mental break down, but I think that is a probable possibility. This very overwhelming sense of solitude that engulfed me as literal as the fog that covered the empty lot where I walked Aso that night. 

 

Good thing I'm a girl, and that I am near my time of the month. Because then, I am just blaming this ridiculous irrational way of thinking to hormones.  

 

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

And I wasn't even aware of it until I got a phone call from a sick classmate inquiring if I wanted to take over her shift. Which makes it even more awesome (being on call, not the classmate being sick) since I didn't jinxed it or I didn't get overly excited just to be disappointed in the end. 

 

That's basically my day. Tomorrow evening I resume my case study. I'm kind of nervous, I feel like it's so simple, yet I have no idea what to do!.

 

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

Today was a very sleepy Tuesday, barely got through my classes by falling asleep. The worst part is that I always sit in front, it's okay though, I wasn't the only one sleeping. 

I finally got my re-approval for my final project. Except I didn't get the paper itself, the instructor had to come to me to tell me that she'd posted my re-approval a week ago. Someone must have taken my notice, what I don't understand is why that particular someone did/does not return it to me; there is absolutely no merit for them whatsoever to keep that piece of paper. It just caused me and my patient inconvenience.

After 2 days of crazy hair, I got my fake curls managed for today. A lot of people seem to love it, I even woke up from a nap with someone caressing my hair, it wasn't the slight bit creepy, I was more worried about how my sleeping/drooling self must have looked.  I don't have a slight idea how to take a compliment btw, it always just seem so awkward and narcissistic to do so, hence I always try to deflect them by saying something, anything. 

 

Got a bit of studying done before I caved and invited out a friend for some distractions. "Some" being .25$ wings this time. Ate DP and I shared these nomnomnables  from Heritage Grill whilst listening to some classy jazz performers and oogling at the very talented woman drummer. *sigh* I'd lick her!

 

Was supposed to see a movie with mother, but she is having a migraine, so I trained back to Surrey with ate DP then ran into coworker TS.I showed her my masterpiece of a costume and she, along with everybody seem to be horrifyingly amused.

 

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

 

Nothing much happened today. Just another Monday, just another practicum day downtown. Though, it's officially Halloween, so I dressed up as a toned down version of my mad scientist costume from Saturday.

 

It was a really sunny and windy day. My hair was comically impeding my vision. I didn't realize how odd I must have looked with my not-so-readily-obvious costume apart from my bird nest of a hair. 

I did meet up with a classmate who was filling in for the evening, for another classmate of ours

 

Another bad hair day? GET IT TOGETHER WOMAN!

 I was able to go home earlier this evening because I had a no show for my last slot. It's okay, I've been making up for it with the extra Saturdays I've been doing.

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

MONDAY 10/24- The Day I Procrastinated

Nothing new there right? The next day was my first and only midterm for the entire semester. I am not usually a self motivated person especially when it comes to studies. But I just find it extra hard to care about school especially when this is a particularly lax semester. I never fail to be super regretful in the end though.

On the plus side of this day, I finally went around and scout for areas for our business-set up project. Also, my external hard drive finally arrived! I've backed up my system so it can crash all it wants now!

TUESDAY 10/25- The Day I Learned About Stress and Anger Management

"You have the right to flush people out of your life if they aren't essential to your being...Just because they're your long time friend doesn't mean you have to keep 'em. It might be hard, someone might cry, sure. But you can do it"

---Wise words from a wise woman (in reference to toxic relationships)

Wrote the written part of the midterm without a hitch. I felt pretty good leaving the exam. Which could only mean one thing,I most likely didn't do well. Strange, but I find that in general, the more difficult I find a particular test, the better the end results are. 

In conjunction to the Anger Management lecture of the day, we learned about Humour Therapy. Hence, we watched stand up comedian in class. 

The irony of this class was, the past couple of days, the instructor teaching it has been experiencing a bit of a mood spell. It is very understandable seeing as, unfortunately, there has been a death of a colleague and a friend. The lecture of the day just really hit home for her what with experiencing anger and sadness. Furthermore, the cause of death was self inflicted (or so we were informed). Poor woman was obviously having a bit of a tough time.

 

The living must go on.

 

On a completely unrelated note. Someone decided to bring this nintendo game console plus games. It's pretty cool!

Mother and I went home that day to this. I guess they must have been both too tired to make it to their bedroom upstairs. 

WEDNESDAY 10/26 -The Day I Became an Insensitive Bitch

For some reason, through little fault of my own, I got myself into an argument with a couple of my friends last week. One being with AA. I'd playfully accused her of not spending time with us anymore not being aware that she has her plate full. She must have took my comment to heart because she replied with a defensive message that I thought wasn't called for. In turn, retaliated with an equally defensive reply and was basically left slightly annoyed for the next following days. Of course, I eventually apologized and cleared the air, seeing as it was her birthday yesterday (10/30). The next one was with KL. Now this one has to do with her consistent last minute cancellations or her lack of presence due to other commitments. To me, that in itself is fine. Sure, I miss spending time with her, but life happens right? The only thing that really bothered me was her constant need to point out her absence. As though, instead of getting reprimanded by someone else, she beats you to it. To me that doesn't make anything alright. So instead of just saying "it's okay" I finally told her off. Someone had to, right?

 

That already set a bad tone for my day to be honest. But it was to be a busy one so I set it aside.
First task of the day was to cram as much information in my head then head to see our family doctor for some very minor health inquiries.

Blood work request that I still haven't done. 

Anyway, Thursday would have been the practical portion of my midterm. I had one spot left open in my practicum on Wednesday but instead of utilizing that time to study I decided I was going to wander around and go out of late lunch.

Scotched Egg and Mushroom Pie

Hmmnn, I'm starting to develop an appreciation for meat pies but only the chicken variety. 

THURSDAY 10/27  -The Day I Felt Very Pathetic

Got through my slightly anticipated midterm in one piece. I got really lucky because I ended up getting something easy. But the aura of the whole examination itself was super relaxed that it was quite odd and different from what we -students- are used to. I'm not complaining though

Anyway, on Tuesday, I realized that I lost my precious, slightly over prized pen that was gifted to me for Christmas by the parents. Wednesday, I tried retracing my step but never found it. I planned to just let it go, but there was just way too much sentiments behind that piece of writing device. So Thursday, I finally got the courage to post this in the school's bulletin board:

It looked quite pathetic really, posting up a sign  for a pen. 

What's even more pathetic is, I actually found said pen on my bed this morning. I must have left it out on Monday when I was cramming for my exam. Hey, but at least now I have it back!

In celebration of finishing my exam and feeling particularly confident of the aftermath, I decided I was going to see a movie that evening. CB and I went to see Paranormal Activity III which was a decent horror film. Still, nothing beats Insidious in my opinion.

We waited for ate LG to finish her shift, then picked up JB from the skytrain then headed to Guildford Pub for some late night grub. 

I will forever prefer pub over night clubs any day. 

FRIDAY 10/28- The Day I wet to a haunted house

Friday's just got sweeter! in addition to half days, my class is now moved to the afternoon! SWEEETT!!!

DEELLLIICIOUSSS  cupcakes a classmate made for everyone!

In the spirit of Halloween, for a few weeks now, I've planned a little get together to go to a haunted house near my practicum downtown! (counter intuitively, this was the reason I got into an argument with those two friends). I basically invited 10+ people but it only ended as a small excursion between me, MF and JB which was all good! Three was all we need to have a good time.

We decided we were going to walk from the train station to the house. Instead of it being a 15 min walk though, we had a few detours along the way, two of which were of course, food related:

 

Infamous cheese stake from Bada Bing   street food-meals on wheels. I must have had high expectations, but this did't taste as magical as I though it would. 

Original Cupcakes.  Again, this did not taste as good as I'd expected! I must finally be maturing, since my affinity for anything sweets is now dwindling. 

 

We finally made it to this beautiful, dream house Victorian restored manor. It now serves as --i think-- some sort of museum. For that evening though, it made a pretty convincing haunted house. Truth be told, I went mostly because I wanted to get a feel of how the house looks like inside. 

I think haunted house are only enjoyable if you are prepared to be spooked. Which we were that night and it was largely owing to JB's nervous energy. While inside, I was alternating from laughing and screaming.

 

"THAT's A PERSON!....YOU CAN HAVE OUR FRIEND (MF)....WHY IS THAT MOVING?!...DON'T TOUCH ME!....WHY IS THAT PERSON FOLLOWING MF?!!!"

--What I was screaming whilst inside the house, as you can tell I had fun!

 

JB, your adorbs!

Before and after. WE SURVIVED!

We ended the night at my house after meeting up with ate LG  and CB at the newly open Wal Mart Super Center. My neighbourhood is rapidly changing its ridiculous.

SATURDAY 10/29- The Day I scared my friends

Since I'd miss a shift on Monday, I had to make up for it eventually, and since I really have nothing to do, I decided I was going to make up for it on this day to get it out of the way. What sucks is that on my way to school, work called asking me to come in. This is just another pattern that I've noticed through the years of working there;  I get a consistent flow of a few shifts once I've worked once after a long hiatus, then it's back again to not working for a couple of months *sigh*

To compromise, I went in after my shift though in my clinical uniform as I have no time to go home to grab my scrubs.

I looked out of place of course, but I still got my job done.

In the evening, I went to a small Halloween get together at ate NA,  which gave me the opportunity to dress up! Man, I need more friends! is it sad that at my age, I don't get invited to any parties at all?

Lab coat courtesy of one of the dentist I work for. He lend it to me under the condition --from the entire staff-- that I return it white and clean. I tried soaking it in some formula, but I don't think it made a difference  There goes my promised/reward of ice cap

I have been SUPER excited for my costume idea! I went as a mad scientist that night, effectively scaring everyone who attended! YES! mission accomplished 

"Sorry, forgot to do my hair and make up" 

As always, spending time with friends are just always fun! We didn't even consume a ridiculous amount of alcohol that night. Actually, I didn't even have a drop. Yeahp, we're grown 

 

SUNDAY 10/30 -The Day I spent it like how I wish I could spend most days

 

Sleeping and lazying about. Yeahp, I define "lazy" Sundays

 

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

 

THURSDAY 10/20- The Day I Received a Semi Brand New Phone

 To be honest, I couldn't wait for school to finish, I've just been excited since the day before to get my semi new phone. Albeit, it isn't the latest model. For the price I paid though, who care?

Nokia N97 Mini. BARGAINS FTW!

Favourite part of dental visits? When the chair get lowered down!!!!

I got it from a coworker who used to for a couple of months after purchasing it almost brand new from another coworker. I was at the dental office the day before since Ma'dear and baby brother had appointments but coworker forgot to bring the phone much to my disappointment. Anyway, I had to come in the day after (Thursday) for a filling, but I just couldn't wait! 

I used to dislike silver fillings, but now I think they're kind of awesome. It adds character to the teeth, don't you think?

Pictures from the new cell, look at how much better the resolution of my new toy is!

I met up with Ate LG in SFU after my dental visit. I got hungry, and though I was still numb in the mouth from the anesthetic -least favourite part of dental procedures- I convinced mommy to met up with me and buy me food. And of course I took advantage of the opportunity!

We ended late though I didn't get much done. 

 

FRIDAY 10/21- The Day My Life Flashed Before My Eyes

It was a half school day, I spent the rest of the afternoon after class asleep. For some unknown reason to me, Kuya, decided to be nice and lend me his car voluntarily.

I figured, he must have been high.  Or ate a really bad shrimp. 

Of course I HAD  to take advantage of this SUPER RARE opportunity. So in the evening, I'd called my usual out. I'd originally wanted to see a flick but CB convinced me to go to New West. 

 

CB, MF and I ate at a Restaurant Lounge that was unknown to me despite it being only a block or two from school. The place had a nice aura to it. I even saw some of the people I had started out my school with. Now they are all graduated and have written their board. I couldn't help but wonder how it would have been like had I not screwed up my schooling and had finished with them  *sigh*

While those two indulged in alcoholic beverage, I, being the responsible driver that I am, stuck to plain cranberry juice 

Nachos and Chicken Cordon Bleu 

Late dinner was tasty, Ate LG eventually met up with us and it was all in all a good evening, until  it was time to drive back home...

 

It still makes me nervous and shake my head on my self for my own stupidity. Granted I have never been in a really busy area in the short time since I'd passed my drivers license. It wasn't as though I have never been around the area, but my already poor sense of directions just gets even more muddled and disoriented when I'm behind the wheels. That plus it was at night time. I just kept making wrong turns, so eventually my friends had to coach me through. 

As I was heading back to the street after making a 3 point turn in a residential area, I'd accidentally taken the wrong lane and instead got on the wrong side of the traffic. 

It only took about .0000005 seconds to realize my mistake. 

breathe. breathe. breathe. 

Luckily there wasn't any on coming traffic. Though all the vehicles were half a block away at the stop light, their lights turned green and I just saw my life flash before my eyes. This is about as near to near-death-experience as I'd ever been in. I knew I had to act FAST, so as quickly as I could, without any regards to my brother's vehicle --or apparently the traffic behind me either- I reversed and got on the right lane. As I was reversing though, in my panic, I didn't realize that there was a car coming up behind me quickly. I must have had the Heaven's entirety watching over me that night, because I just narrowly missed hitting the car. Imagine the mess I would have made!

Kuya's parting words with his keys: "Clean my car and do not crash"

Needless to say, I was in a total state of shock, but I had to brush off the nervous adrenaline rushing through my system for I still have to get us home safely. It also helped that ate LG was giving my words of encouragement, I think she really sensed my panic.

Poor MF sitting in the passenger's seat must have been so traumatized. The last coherent words I heard as soon as I made the mistake was her screaming "WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?"

Thank God and the Heavens that I managed to get us back safe. We actually ended up back in my place to watch Paranormal Activity 2

 

 

 

SATURDAY 10/22- The Day I Finally Worked

The night before, when I was picking up CB,  I'd received an urgent phone call and text from my coworker since 2 of the people working the next day are ill. I've been seeing a pattern where, the more I say that I think I'm fired, I miraculously get a shift. 

Kuya also lend me his car again. But I feel like I half sneaked it out since he was still clearly asleep when he agreed to it. 
I did leave early in the hopes of studying, but again, I just spent the afternoon/evening asleep until it was time to get ready for DV's  much anticipated birthday celebration. It was to take place in a party bus, which I quickly learn, was basically a moving club. Not really a big fan  

I went there with MF, she offered to come get me and in turn I offered to pay for her bubble tea cravings

Mango Colada! YUMM!!

I probably made out with the entire bus that night. Only because apparently alcohol is not allowed in the party  bus so people got creative, made and poured mixed --completely unknown- drinks into water bottles, which was passed from one person to the next. I'm pretty sure the driver knew, but he's already done his job of assuring we had no obvious alcoholic substances on us. 

 

  

 As awkward as it was for me being in this setting, I still had a blast. Isn't that the case with spending time with friends though?

It did only last two hours, but for the most part, everyone else aside from a few of us, were already pre-drinking hours ahead. So we just relaxed and talk among ourselves in JG's house. 

Though his house was across from 7Eleven, you know we had to make snack run!

 

 

SUNDAY 10/23 -The Day I Called "In Sick"

I'd realize that I have a lot to do and nothing done. Also, I had a small bout of rebellion and called in sick today. I think I even made a pretty convincing case at that, what with the raspy voice and all . Though, of course I just had to spend the whole day doing what I like to call productive procrastination. ; meaning I cleaned my room, did my laundry, bathe Aso etc. All to avoid cracking my text book. Life of a student right?

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

Chuck it up to procrastination, but as I was browsing random Xangas, I realized that lately, I've just been blogging about inconsequential, minute, day-to-day details of my life, as opposed to before when all my blogs where filled with incoherent strings of words that portray my emotions at the moment. Ironically, I decided to include pictures to my blogs because looking back, I realize that nothing of what I'd posted made sense, that all of these things that occur in my life just passes by without any recognition from me. I just thought that one day, when I start to become senile, I can look back at these pictures and remember the moment, thoughts and emotions that went with each still photographs. I think once in a while though, it would be okay to have boring, wordy blogs that makes no sense to anyone but me. 

Sometimes I feel crazy addressing and explaining all this, seeing as this blog is not even open to public. Every once in a while, I feel the sudden, compulsive urge to let everyone in my private thoughts, that it's okay to share to the world with half of my animosity still intact. And then another, stronger urge takes over; the part of me afraid of rejection, that what I do or say is not worthy or interesting enough. Or that somehow, I would say something so self destructive that it will come and backfire in the future. Hence oftentimes, I would screen my posts or private them. But I think I've been around in this blog long enough to start giving a crap now.   

To be honest though, the contents of my blog lately --or ever since-- has been/is uninteresting simply because I'm not interesting. There are days when I crave for the excitement I see, read, or watch in t.v. That nagging, persistent feeling of "missing out" is still present -albeit it is ebbing-....

 

That I am not living life but simply cruising through.

 

I don't really know where I'm going with this...Like I said, I just had the urge to let my thoughts flow like before.

 

Just know that I have never been in a better place in my life than where I am now. I am not claiming I deserve any of the fortune that is being bestowed to me and my family, but this past couple of months has been good to everyone. Looking back to where I was when I first started in '05 and onward, maturity has finally made itself clear, not only to me but to this household in general. It's finally a home, to come back to, though incomplete with Father not around for work purposes. I can make no grounds for any complaints. Like LG says: Life's Good. And like I say: Indeed it is. 

 

 

-Elle Are Emm

So much for studying today, it's expected though. Gotta get my shii together. 

 

Since the van was left to my care, I basically played chauffeur for the Baby Bill and Mother Dear, who both had dental appointments. First, I had to pick up Baby Bill from yhe gym, drop him off to the dentist, then pick up mommy from work using the directions she gave me this morning. It all went with minimum hitch.

Aso was my passenger the whole evening. Poor baby was left in the van for a while though. 

Baby Bill requested we had something to eat after, while simultaneously complaining how he wasn't able to work out for the day . I suggested sushi since that's all I've been feeling to eat the whole week. 

   

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE NA!!!!!

At about the same time I was having dinner with mother and Bill, I was invited by CB and ate LG to surprise ate NA with a cake for her birthday. After walking Aso, when we got home, I headed there directly. We didn't stay long seeing as there is school/work tomorrow. I actually have two quizzes I haven't studied for. And now I'm sleepy. 

 

What is this?!

 

-Elle Are Emm