Decided to get my hair permed yesterday afternoon, at a school nonetheless because I'm a broke student like that. LONGEST 3 hours of my life! I don't know what got to me that made me think I have the patient or concentration to sit for 3 hours straight! my butt hurts until now! Hmmmmnn, I'm quite excited but I don't know what to fully think yet, except this: I should really be more assertive with what I want. I JUST new that the curls were going to be smaller and more of rings, instead of medium curls I was going for,  when I saw the small rollers they were using and judging by the amount of hair they were putting up in each rollers. C'mon, THAT was logic. And yet, I choose to keep my mouth shut after a few feeble attempt of trying to explain what I wanted. I would chuck it up to language barriers but in reality it was mostly me. To be fair though, the woman did say that the curlers were of "medium" girth and that my hair wouldn't hold anything looser as it is quite "heavy". It's done now, I'm just going to have to learn how to work with it until about a a year from now when my hair decides to grow back in.

-Elle Are Emm

how many --if not ALL- people mistake me as someone older. I can't comprehend it, sure I wear glasses but I hardly wear makeup. Also, you'd think that my still pubescent face would give my age away I just don't want to look like a 30 year old when I'm in my 20's.

-Elle Are Emm

Whoever created this delightful desert is a GENIUS!.

It is now Saturday, it was spent mostly at work after a night of not partying.

Friday was a bit more eventful. After school, I felt obligated to accompany a friend to a party in Downtown, where else right? It wasn't exactly the typical hotel party I've attended in the past, only because it was segregated as it was a different crowd. To be honest though, I think I'm done with partying, at least for now. There's way too many other things I need to be responsible for, that getting wasted out of my mind is the last thing I want to do. Of course, what triggered this would be the event of the summers' past. As embarrassing as it is to recall that one summer night at camp, I'm really thankful that it happened. Not only has it hindered my taste for alcohol, but it has also put things in perspective. I'm glad that I've experienced and had gotten that part of my life over with. Now I can move on with caution.

-Elle Are Emm

Mother dearest! Although it was technically yesterday, but it is never too late right?

 I'd like to take this time to thank Him for the most wonderful, inspirational, hardworking woman I know. I feel blessed and undeserving to have her in my life.

Today was another clinic day. My shift wasn't busy as I only had one official patient who just had an IRS sauna. So I tried to keep myself busy by running around for other people, only to realize at the end of the day, that I only accumulated 1.5 credit for myself. Busiest last 40 mins of my shift EVER as I tried to find people to give treatments too. Therefore it was given when I came home that I would just pass out after eating dinner. TGIF though.

-Elle Are Emm

It's only 9PM and this household is already quiet as everyone's asleep. So what did I do? I went to get Aso from his slumber at the foot of the parent's bed. When I got him upstairs though, he proceeded to fall asleep in my arms for a few minutes, wiggled out and escaped without me noticing. This is very strange.

Other than that, my day went as usual, nothing worth nothing except for the split second when BB winked at me *swoon*.

-Elle Are Emm

PS. I dropped by a salon/school on my way home. I was thinking of getting my hair permed. Yes? No? Let me just say though, from how the exterior look + its location, I was pleasantly surprised that it looked very presentable inside.  

Professional Development Day.  Awesome

Basically spent the day asleep, with periods of drifting back into consciousness in between, that were long enough to play bouts of minesweeper ( I am so addicted to that game!) So much for being "productive". Since it was a Tuesday--technically yesterday-- (movie deals anyone?), I went to catch two shows with the Babilonia sister and Mr. Jiew. I originally wanted to see  I am #4, but to CB`s insistence, we saw The Roomate instead, and planned to sneak in Unknown soon after. We sat through The King's Speech to kill time before Unknown, but it was actually intriguing so we just stayed instead.

Had Chocolate Milkshake (that tasted funny), fries and Mcminis from McD drive thru then home.

-Elle Are Emm

to form proper, complete, structured sentences. So here is the point form version of my day:

-School
-Made a new friend (couple days ago actually)
-"Eyes" *blush what a cutie jerk
-Aquino's for dinner and "studying"
-Ate diner and gossiped instead (of course)
-Home
-Pro-D day tomorrow. YEY

-Elle Are Emm

blogging. HONEST! in fact I visit xanga more than 5x a day. I wish I could say its all due to my hectic schedule. That would be a big fat lie. What can I say? I'm really ust not that interesting of a person.

I recently finished the first half of midterms. Of course, I had to leave the studying to the last minute. What a nasty habit, I really infuriate myself when it comes to that. I was successful with some, and not so with others. I also tried starting an exercise regime, it lasted the whole 2 days *sigh*, I wish I could blame it on "being busy" but a big chunk of it is just me making excuses. Lame. Other than that, I've just been here and there, doing the same old stuff. Although I did break my own rule and got lured into watching a drama again! I wish I could reproach myself for it, but it just so damn good! What can I say? I like living vicariously through others. I'm going to stop now.

-ELLE ARE EMM

in yourself

I have to keep reiterating that to me. There's so much doubt going on, and it has largely to do with the fact that I do not have confidence in my capabilities, as I feel as though I haven't lived to my full potential. I am specifically speaking of school work wise. I get so fixated in the wrong things that I do, that I get surprise with the marks/feedback I get.

It is good to hear feedback especially from instructors though. For example, last night, I had my clinic evaluation, I was very frantic and by the end of it, I though I'd be lucky if I'd get a 70%, to my surprise, after hearing a lot of phrase from my instructor and a few constructive criticism, it turns out that I knew what I was doing since I managed to score 91%. 

I just have to learn to own what I do and fake it til I make it, and until I can properly say that I am good at it.

-Elle Are Emm

Except, with how monotonous my life is on the regular, I really have nothing special/of interest to say. Although it is Father dear's birthday today. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

To the one and only and forever special man in my life:

I love you, and God is good, he'll help us through this. You are the most steadfast, faithful, trustworthy, and loving man I've ever know, and will ever know. Daddy, you are the sunshine in this cynic world we live in. The very definition of near to perfect Man  and Father. The one of the few things, this doubt-filled daughter of yours, is thankful to Him for. You hold me up. You make me want to believe. You inspire me. Dear Daddy, hang on for a bit more okay? I'm coming, I'll get there soon enough to help you out. I'll do it for you, just as how you are doing it for us.

truth

-Elle Are Emm