March 26, 2012

  • I'm just a kid

    Long time no blog. I haven't been able to bring myself to recount my failures. 

    And I'm not about to. Not yet.

    Though, I really just need to get something off my chest before I implode in smithereens. Here goes:

     

    I am beyond furious and frustrated with myself, because for all the maturity I like to think I possess, I am nothing but a child. It literally takes my breath away to admit that. I feel sick to my stomach and there is this bitter taste that persistently lingers in my mouth.  

    I am not an adult, I am no where near being one.  Because adults don’t give up or just sit around twiddling their thumbs; they plow through hardships. 

    But here’s my resolution; I plan to continue on with all that I’ve got until the end.  Hopefully by the end, I can gain enough self respect to look in the mirror again.  

     

     

     

    -Elleareemm