November 5, 2011

  • The Day I had a movie date with Mommy

    Just got back from watching Tower Heist 2011 with le mother. I like it, it kept me entertained. Aside from that and accompanying mother with her evening errands, I basically just lazed around the whole Friday due to the fact that I did not have any class/other commitments. 

     

    Yesterday was a bit depressing though. I headed home late in the evening, and on my way, I saw a couple of people I know/acquainted with. One of which being a former classmate from high school. To keep up conversation and avoid awkward bus ride, I chatted him up about inane topics such as how was his life post high school, does he keep in touch with former class/school mates, has he visited back etc. That in itself wasn't too bad, it's more of the fact that I noticed that time is passing by quickly. So quickly in fact that I am to turn a full two decade in a mere 13 days. It bothered me so much that I couldn't help but feel very emotional and teary eyed as I walked Aso for the evening. 

    I don't like.

    For some reason, not being a teen any longer saddens me, I feel like I haven't accomplished anything in the nearly twenty years that I have lived. I used to joke to my friends that I would have a mental break down, but I think that is a probable possibility. This very overwhelming sense of solitude that engulfed me as literal as the fog that covered the empty lot where I walked Aso that night. 

     

    Good thing I'm a girl, and that I am near my time of the month. Because then, I am just blaming this ridiculous irrational way of thinking to hormones.  

     

     

     

    -Elle Are Emm